My shoulder surgery is now in less than 2 weeks. The closer I come to the date the more nervous I feel. When I first found out I had to get surgery I didn't feel nervous. I am so used to getting this news from doctors, having them tell me that it's too far gone to be able to fix it any other way. Now that I have had time to process I keep thinking back about my last 2 shoulder surgeries and how difficult it was to get through. I don't think I am mentally prepared for the pain I am about to go through. Since I do not response to any medications I will be doing this surgery with nothing but an anti inflammatory. No matter how much I try to prepare, there's no way to prepare for the amount of stress my body is about to go through with no relief. Not only was shoulder surgery physically painful but it is also mentally draining. I am a very independent person, a very independent person that is going to be in a brace for 14 weeks. Which means I wont be able to dress, shower, do my hair, tie my shoes and many other things without help. I have a long road ahead of me.
I want to thank everyone for their love support and help in getting me through these hard times. It truly means so much to me and I will never be able to put into words how appreciative I am.
Lots of Love
-Maile
